wen is getting depressed..

it's getting late.. and i have no idea if we'll still get a chance to talk tonight.. not like you can help it.. but just.....

oh i dunno..

it's like tomorrow is gonna be an utterly long day for you while i will be slacking at home with nothing to do.. and fri, will be much less the same except that i got a tentative tuition.. and a performance that night.. sat, no need to say.. sun, co, tuition.. monday, driving i think.. then tue i start school liao!!! omg..

it's just like, there just seems to be so little time we can spend together..
just so..... *sighs*

and it's like.. just so sian lor..

and i think the fact that i wished you could be having a car just.. evoked another rather strong emotion in me.. somehow..

i just envy those girls who get their bfs to send them home..
serious..
for us, it's not that i don't want to lor..
you don't know how many times i wished you'd be able to send me home..
but when i see the stuff you are carrying, or the time we were actually taking the mrt, i just couldn't bear lor..
i couldn't bear to let you travel so far carrying so many things.. i couldn't bear to let travel all the way to the other end of the country alone, late at night..
i just can't bear..
so much so that even when you offer to send me home, i think my reflex action would be to say 'no'.. when deep down, my heart would probably be screaming a 'yes!'..

my friend wanqi commented that i'm such an understanding gf..
and all i couldn't do was shrug..
this is being understanding meh? i dunno.. but i know that if i am not like that, it'd make me utterly selfish.. because gombak to bedok is so different from gombak to amk (where her bf stays)..

aiya.. i just dunno lar..

P.S. and i actually wish i say all these to you personally.. but i just.. can't seem to find the right words when you are around..
*sigh*